We have two boys, Aidan who turned 5 in January and Connor who will be 3 in August. I love them dearly, I couldn't imagine my life without them. Part of me is missing having a girl, though, and I think I want to give it one more try. But my husband is very okay with having 2 kids and no girls. I'm okay with having 2 kids but I'm really missing a girl and I think I will miss it even more as my boys get older and start doing more boy stuff with their dad and leaving me home by myself for periods of time. BUT, there are no guarantees that if we were to have another baby, it would be a girl. My sister has a girl and my brother has 2 girls, perhaps I could borrow them and just live vicariously through them, create a special relationship between me & my nieces :) I actually went as far, though, as to figure out that if I get pregnant in August, I'll have the June baby I've always wanted. Then, that fall, Aidan will be in 1st grade and Connor will be in preschool. Seems like perfect timing to me.
There are so many reasons NOT to have a 3rd kid, too, though... most recent, I found out yesterday it's going to cost us big $$$ for Aidan to play hockey. I want to be able to give him that, he LOVES the sport. Would we be able to if we had another kid? We'd need a bigger vehicle, I'd have to give up my spare room which I love so dearly, my youngest is working on potty training- do we really want to start all over??? Not to mention, we were set on not having any more kids and I got rid of EVERYTHING baby. Well, except for crib, changing table, dresser, play mat. But everything else is gone. And finally, after 8 years and 2 kids, I finally weigh again what I did when we got married. I'd be taking one huge step backward in that area!
what to do... well as of right now, Ryan is still very happy with just two and doesn't miss having a girl. So, I guess all I can do is pray and wait. Pray that God changes my heart to be content with what we have or changes Ryan's to long for another. And wait because everything perfect happens in God's time, not in ours.
